A better week

Last week was just terrible. It seemed to be one problem after another all week long. This week seems to be off to a better start, other than some minor annoyances.

It’s finals week. I’ve taken both the exams but I have one more paper to complete tomorrow. After that I have 8 weeks off from school and then I go back for my final session. And then I will be finished with college finally. It’s hard to believe I’m almost done but I’m glad.

That’s about it really. I have a few things to do around the house and then it’s time for bed.

TVs and new houses

I bought a new TV for the guest bedroom today. It’s a 19″ Westinghouse flatscreen. The sound on it kind of blows but for $150 you can only expect so much I guess. It takes up so much less room than the 27″ that was in there. I’m going to give that one to mom I think. The TV in her bedroom is about 400 years old so she can use it.

I got it from Justin. I hung out over at their house for a while. While I was there, D-Daddy called me and wanted me to come look at the inside of this house he showed me the other day that they were looking at. So I came back to Oxford and took a look around. They were figuring out what furniture to put in what room, so I asked if they bought the house, and he said they did! I am surprised they have finally committed to buying a house in Oxford, they have been house hunting over here for so long – probably 2 years now.

The house is in Wellsgate and not far from Amanda’s family’s house. It’s across the lake from Chan, too. It backs right up to the pond and has plenty of room. Probably more than they need, but at least it doesn’t have that huge yard to keep up.

They close on it a week from Thursday and I guess they will start moving after that. I’m sure it’s going to be a huge job to move – they have much, much more stuff than I could ever dream of having, and they’ve had 20 years to accumulate it in their current house.

I am going to miss their house in Water Valley, but I am so excited that they will be closer. I’ll be able to see them so much more now.

I’m going to knock out some homework shortly, and finish up the laundry… just the same old menial crap. I’m hoping next weekend can be a “car weekend” and I can get some things done.

Tomorrow’s going to be a long day… 80 guest room activity chairs being delivered and needing to be installed.

Typical

As usual when things tend to go bad in my life it tends to happen in a spectacular fashion and all at once. Mary Kate and I have gone our seperate ways. Things at work have been extraordinarily stressful this week, and just about everything that can go wrong has. So I am trying to take today to collect myself and just have a day for me, but the phones at the hotel break and that keeps me there for most of the day.

I am trying to figure out some things about myself. I see myself repeating this same cycle of destroying my relationships and I trace it all back to what happened with M in high school. I know that is the reason I can’t trust anyone and I know it’s the reason my relationships fail. Everything that’s happened all seems to hinge off of that one series of events and now I can’t get past it. It’s been too long. I want to be happy and I want to move forward and find someone but I don’t think I’ll ever be able to as long as that is floating over my head.

I just feel so angry. I feel like I’m grabbing at straws with so many things and I feel like the one thing that has been a consistent feeling that I’ve had… I feel like I can’t put any faith in that and if I do and it starts to work I mess it up because I have doubts. I can’t have faith or self esteem enough to really do this right. It’s hurting my work and it’s hurting my personal life and I’m tired of it. I’m tired of being walked on and used and hurt.

Long time no blog…

I always get in these time periods where I slack off on the blogging. And I have been in one of those lately. I have been dating a girl named Mary Kate since January 9. She is taking up quite a lot of my time.

MaryGrace and I went to New Orleans on January 18-22 for GM Conference. New Orleans is a pretty cool place and we had fun while we were there. Since I’ve been back I’ve just been working. I’m also joining the Ole Miss Rotary Club which is pretty interesting I guess. I wanted to get involved with a social club so there ya go.

Yesterday was Mary Kate’s birthday. We went to Boure last night to eat and then watched a movie. Tomorrow we are leaving to go to Nashville for the weekend. I need a break from work and GM conference really was not that.

Other than that I guess there is not much to report. I submitted my graduation application last week and should graduate in June if all goes as planned. I am really excited about that!